The Feel Called CA

yessssssss!! I cracked the CA exam 3 days back. Now I can proudly & officially add the prefix CA before my name. It feels TOTALLY AMAZINGLY AWESOME  to be called so, to be among those 29% students who were able to get through., to get that 'queen like' attention at home, to see mommy telling my younger sibling to strictly adhere to what I am saying, to update the 5 year long awaited status on facebook( no matter how I hate facebook, I HAVE TO update this quintessential achievement of life), to see those tints of red color aka n number of notifications on the status every time I logged into facebook, to see the sense of relief in parents eyes, to see the watery eyes of Mother India ( yes! these Indian mothers I tell you, my mom started crying even while standing on the road ).

Ok so now let me tell you how was the D-day. The result date got postponed by one day from the scheduled date. I didn't let my mom know about all this furore. When she came back from school ( she is a teacher ), I could actually see the tension on her face as if it was her result & here I was sitting coolly n calmly, ready to take the tension the next day. She hurriedly came up to me & asked me about the result, I simply said, "not yet declared". She kept asking me to check the site time & again. But I managed to change the topic somehow. The next day I had to attend an interview in Chandigarh & the result was scheduled to be declared latest by evening. 

I was kicked out in the GD round itself. (with 30-40 other candidates, that was the relieving part, SIGH!)

I could not digest the fact that I performed pathetic in the GD. I was shivering like anything, partly because I was in the very first group to be judged & partly because that was the first ever interview I was going to face & that too with the nervousness of result which was going to be declared.

So after the miserable performance I gave, I took the bus back to my hometown. During the journey I was laughing my heads off on my performance & was praying that atleast now the result( of CA) goes well.

while in the bus,around 2 p.m, I was surfing some CA page on facebook & suddenly I saw someone's comment that results had been declared. I opened the site n typed the roll number with trembling hands. Ahhh!! the phone screen showed the bold pink colored word "PASS". 

Ecstatic I was, not knowing how to vent off my emotions in a crowded bus,with nobody giving two hoots as to what I was going through. I did not inform the same to my parents just because I wanted to witness their expressions in person. Hardly 30-40 minutes were left to reach but it seemed to be an eternity. And with the pakka khoon of  CA running in my body, I neither had enough balance in my phone to survive the roaming charges nor free messages. 

I reached the bus stop, wishing everyone around to welcome me, escort me;) as if some IAS officer has come. :D I wanted people to ask me how did the result go, so that I could proudly let them know. I wanted every relative of mine to call me or my mum to inquire about my result.

Then I called up mum to pick me up. She reached, n I was determined to not to tell her until we reached home. But as soon as she came, I could not contain my excitement n gave her a vanilla smile.She somehow understood but wanted to listen it from me. I unveiled it n she started crying then & there.

To all those who don't know, CA course comprises of 3 levels which stretch to atleast 4-5 years. When I cleared the level 2 , I was happy like never before, but now when I have cracked up the last & final level, my  happiness could not even match the one i experienced earlier let alone it went beyond that. I don't know why.. may be because I was disheartened at the interview, or may be because the next level tensions of job & all took over or may be because almost everyone known to me cleared it n it seemed to me just like another exam not holding much relevance or may be because its unsatisfying human nature. I still could not experience the peak of euphoria I'd expected. I wish I could now land up in a good job & be able to feel what I've always wished to.